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Rape will never be funny. I know some people are always looking for the next shocking topic, but the day rape becomes one of them is the day we women and transgendered women need to hit the fuckin' STREETS.

Rape is unthinkable. It's just that.

This is fucking ridick, and the fact that it happened in good ol' Canada pisses me off even more. This is the end of my first year of university here in Toronto and my experience of the boys on this campus has been probably a little worse than the boys back in the States. I'm thinking family life is even more traditional and religious here, and I've met some seriously ripe assholes. Then again I have met some pretty great guys. I'm not saying I expected some HUGE difference in attitude - I ain't stupid - but, gah. Whatever. I'm just not used to hearing such bigoted shit from Canada.

i'm used to retards making decisions for me, but that doesn't make it any more right

What a lovely way to begin my fucking day.

"The bill could lead to a reversal of the ban that broke legal precedent by providing no health exception for the woman."

Why, what a charming and WORTHWHILE legal precedent to break!

Five well-to-do and undoubtedly power-drunk white men (oh, wait, the token black dude was in on it too) just decided that they not only know better than every doctor in the country and instead of GIVING women information, ensuring that they would make more informed decisions about their abortions - because women are capable of RATIONAL THOUGHT, FOR FUCK'S SAKE, Jesus Christ this is such a fucking piece of sociobiological bullshit - they made the choice FOR them. NO ABORTION!

NO fucking abortion. I said it before and I'll say it many more times: Do YOU want to raise these unwanted children? These children will suffer. They will suffer long and hard. That piece of shit bigot Kennedy who's supposed to have this superior knowledge and employ it on the Court - who's supposed to interpret a Constitution that needs MUCH amendment - has done what I get penalized for doing on my university essays. He made claims with no source.

What may be even more offensive to me is the pure glee that anti-choice activists are displaying. I've read quotes like "We're having fun" and the like. Last night my Pittsburgh Penguins were booted from the playoffs by the Ottawa Senators, which is a pretty fucking shitty feeling, especially since I'm right now located at university in Toronto where I've been giving Torontonians shit about the Leafs being eliminated. I face a barrage of embarrassment at the hands of others today.

Abortion > Sports. See what I mean? You're taking LIVES. Fuck hockey. Abortion is the real fucking thing. You're having FUN? This decision not only affects those of us FLOOSIES who want their normal sex lives but expectant mothers. Do you realize that without a HEALTH EXCEPTION, one of our BASIC HUMAN (not WOMANLY, HUMAN) RIGHTS, mothers are second-guessing their decisions? They're going through pregnancies in fear. GOOD. JOB.

I'm still afraid to be American, but now I'm overwhelmingly ashamed. Everyone up there is truly a blithering idiot. I feel like I'm in the goddamn stone ages.

In other news, I got Armchair Apocrypha by Andrew Bird last night and it is AWESOME. I avoided his music (I'm a snob) until my friend sent me "Plasticities", but the standout track is definitely "Scythian Empires", and not for its quasi-political message at all. It's just gorg.

betrayal is a dirty word

I have had many blogs in the past that I couldn't keep up whether due to my own disinterest or whatever. I usually post to LiveJournal just for two of my friends who still use it, but I have way too much shit to say about the issues that drove me from the USA - women's, reproductive and gay rights among, like, everything else - and after yesterday's Supreme Court ruling in favor of the partial-birth abortion ban, which ROYALLY pissed me off, I wrote this note on Facebook. This is my first post.

I came to Canada because I wanted to get a head-start on someday becoming a citizen if I needed to. As some of you may know, I am overemotional and irrational when it comes to feelings and stuff like that. I am HEAVILY affected by bullshit and I don't let anything go. It's not like a personal rule, I just can't let shit go. I am also a feminist, which a lot of people are misinformed about but I could give a shit less about the looks people give me when I tell them, because those people are fucking DROOLING idiots. Get some culture, please.

Listen. The fact is, I'm scared to be an American and a woman at the same time. Today some fucking assholes with tiny-dick complexes upheld the partial-birth abortion ban, which basically means that if I go back to my home country and decide to have a baby - even if I WANT this baby - and the pregnancy ended up threatening my health, ME, AN ALREADY-ESTABLISHED PERSON, A GROWN-ASS WOMAN - the GOVERNMENT wouldn't allow me to obtain an abortion.

Their vague, "science-y" argument is that women who receive abortions later suffer extreme depression. As if WOMEN are HUGELY generic; our emotions, indeed, are all EXACTLY THE SAME. Every woman on the planet is identical, correct?

WRONG, ASSHOLE.

As some of you may know, I am going through a hell of a depression right now. I HIGHLY doubt that if I received an abortion that would save my health and potentially my life that I could suffer a depression any worse than the shit that I'm dealing with now. If I had wanted the child, me and my boo would undeniably go through a period of mourning. Then we'd probably adopt one of the thousands of needing children in the United States alooooooone.

Listen to me. Motherhood is not what I am made for. I was born with the equipment, which may or may not be in working order. But motherhood, itself, has been largely perverted by the patriarchy - in short, THE MAN. Answer me this: In olden times, were women given any choice but to pop out some kids to keep their family name intact? No, I agree with you: We should have fought harder to break the status quo. If I were every woman back then, shit would be dunzo. It's 2007 and still folks don't see much of an option beyond having kids and providing via a 9-5 job. There IS a connection between mothers and their children, I'm sure - because WE CARRY those assholes in our BODIES FOR NINE MONTHS. That is a LONG ASS time. Our children DEVELOP in us. We feel them kick for the first time, feel them move around and shit - we nourish them - we carry their asses around. I do not doubt that connection at all. But if you're trying to tell me that in the age we live in, in this incredibly complex world, that that is the ultimate goal of my existence? One of them, maybe. Carrying a child would be crazy. But as a human being I am meant for MUCH more. Oh yeah, and SO IS EVERYONE ELSE.

Give me my reproductive freedom and give that shit to me NOW. GROW the FUCK UP.

Let me tell you something. I cried when I read this stupid fuck ass Supreme Court ruling. I know that a large majority of folks are still dumb as fucking rocks when it comes to abortion, GAY MARRIAGE (one of the LAMEST POLITICAL ISSUES OF ALL FUCKING TIME AND SPACE) and equal rights and WHAT the fuck ever, and we keep saying "our time is coming" and all that - and most of the time *I* am the one being cynical and thinking we're never going to win.

This shit is unforgivable. I will NEVER forgive my country for betraying me like this.

I swear to all time and space, I will live to see a Supreme Court with more than ONE WOMAN sitting on it. I will live to see a time when people get off their FAT, DIABETIC ASSES and TAKE CHARGE OF THEIR LIVES and hold their government responsible. I will live to punch many a douchebag in the fucking face for getting all up in mine, trying to tell ME what a feminazi I am, trying to tell ME what to think and how to feel about issues that are ONLY mine. Oh yeah, that's right! Issues of the penis are only for men. Issues of the vagina and all other related parts are for THE LADIES. Bitch I SAID IT.

I WILL see this world, which has been promised to me by MANY a feminist, where representation for all genders and ethnicities is present in La Estados Unidos. I really do love being an American - I take it for granted. It's something special. But after the dump that my own Supreme Court took today on my face, living in Canada tastes all that much sweeter. Yum yum yummy.

Oh, and by the way, for all you motherfuckers who want to tell me about 'sanctity of life' and all that horseshit, I want YOU to have all my unwanted children. YOU want to tell me that I NEED to have children? Then I'm shipping their asses STRAIGHT TO YOUR DOOR. You want kids so bad, fucking ADOPT THEM! There are enough poor fucked-up children out there, the results of unwanted pregnancies NO DOUBT, needing stable homes! WILL SOMEONE PLEASE GROW A FUCKING BRAIN?

Oh, and I have messages for all those presidential candidates who want me to vote for they asses in 2008 who endorsed banning the partial-birth abortion law today:

Rudolph Giuliani, you can eat my cooter.
John McCain, I respect you on many fronts, but I invite you, too, to eat me out. I will not be voting for your ass if you're going to treat me this way.
To some asshole named 'Mitt Romney' (NOT a presidential name btw), you should definitely get on your knees right quick.
Tommy G. Thompson, suck it.
Sam Brownback, lick my balls.

THAT is all.